a love song for bobby long

love that movie. too bad matt and i could barely stay up to watch all of it. maybe we need to cut back on the cartoon star wars that we watch. LOL. nerds!
anywho, ugg so i wasnt even suppose to be in new hampshire this weekend, and i dont care to get into it too much but, but i ended up coming up here after class and chashing my check, dealing with the bank, and paying my ticket from. i was under the impression matt wasnt getting out of work untill 5 and i didnt want to get there before him so i made myself dirve reallllyyy slow, expecially the last hour i had before he got out. i hg\it traffic twice and still got there 10 min before 5. i dont know how its possible. some days when i drive here it takes forever, lik more than 4 hours, and then other days i can get here in 3 to three and a half. well, i got here and it turns out matt was home all day, and i couldve gotton there lik and hour to an hour and a half before i actually did. so i was lik ugghh. w/e

then we only had friday nite and till lik 3:30 on saturday bc he had to work all nite. he got home real late last nite, and we stayed up till lik 4:30 watching movies. then went to sleep. then he had to get up at the ass crack of dawn this morning to go to work, and im quite sad now of course. i wont get to see him before i leave in a couple of hours, hes suppose ot call me on his break, and i texted him hopefully hell let me swing by there while hes on his break so i can say goodbye and then ill just head home. but he didnt answer my text, probs bc its busy and he hasnt even had the time to read it. im feeling blue. this was the shortest time ever, but i guess it beats being at home. in 2 weeks is the next big house party so i guess im gonna hav to come here instead of him making it to ny, which is fine with me.

i got very upset the other day when he told me he wasnt coming for the weekend. i also, dont feel lik getting into it much, but basically there were lik killers on the loose on the area, so naturally i was scared and couldnt wait to talk to him and then he texted me late, when i was waiting up for him and basically dropped the news and blew me off bc he was frustrated. that was not a good nite at all. end of story. but we did end up talking about everything. and he told me alot of shit i wish he expressed or pointed out earlier, instead of waiting untill it gt to the point it did. but i felt, and feel better after talking to him. hopefully his works will help me get through the days. im not gonna lie its still hard, but only for a few more months.

well i worked on a bunch of signs all weekend while he was at work. i also cleaned his room, did his laundry, and today i got the newspaper with his add for the primary election tuesday and framed it and put it on his wall so he can be surprised when he gets home.

well idk wat else to say rite now. im feeling down, and dont want to be bc its such a nice days out. im gonna be watching the vmas tonite with danielle when i get home. im planning to leave in time so i dont hav to hang out too much time with the fam once i get home and so i can pretty much just go straight over there after i dropp my things off once i get home.

peace and humptyness forever!!!!
<3reneee