lets build a rocket to the moon

it never gets old. no matter whatcha do. im excited for the new album when ever that maybe. omfg if i see scenes from a movie or valencia anytime soon i think my life would be better. oghhh tony bush. rawr. i just finished my 20 fashion design sketches and i have to say there much better than the last 20. i pretty much own at the moment. i just hope fat mexican teacher doesnt hate cause i think i did a good job. now im really tired. alot of things are going through my mind right now i could really use lik an electroncial box planted in my head so i can store my thoughts away untill later so i can sleep without thinking so much my brain might explode. i am now a firm believer in the expression " you never know what you have untill you lose it" or the expression along that line. i miss home. family. friends. valencia. my car. my old matress. nyc inspiration for my designs. cheerleading. time for photography [whcih im starting a club lik next week....HOLLER] and a bunch of other things. things here change i cant keep up. one minture ill hate everyone but then theyy turn around and apologize for being the ass holes that they are and lik im not going to hold it against them if there making an effort to be friends with me. cause i could use some friends right now. but still no one seems to be lik ppl that ive met and the friends from home. i mean i know they wont ever be the same but you would think you would meet a variety of ppl on college and i feel its lik bitches and ass holes that were around in middle school. HA so much for the college effect. ugg i know i dont need a man in my life to make me happy and blah blah blah but i could really use one right now. not nessesarly a boyfriend but just a coold dude who i can chill with and relate to. its just not happening right now. boston is becoming quite a city of mixed emotions for me. just lik this school and the ppl here. one moment things surprise me and things are great and the next mintue things couldnt be anymore rediculous. i actauuyl was a mess in my music class today bc everyclass i cant understand our teacher. i dont even know what she is but i can NEVER understand what shes saying i learn from the shit she rights on the bord but todayt me and alyssa could NOT stop laughing at her i was lik crying i was laughing so hard. it was pretty rude of us but i lik COULD NOT controll it. HAHAHAHAHHAHAfunnyassclass. i think the reason why things arnt top notch here is bc things arnt going the way i wanted them to. or not that but lik i wanted to make a certain "image" or person overall of myself and be around certain ppl bc it was a new frech start and all that jazz but so far it doesnt feel lik college. i mean i dont want to jinks myself and things get to hard and outa controll but lik i want a bit of a push [i actually think its coming up soon] and im SOO0o0o0o0o excited for the fashion show. eooo it gives me chills thinking about making my own design and then having it be in a show. thats effing awsome and i cant wait for that moment when its all about my dreams and goals. im pretty sure ill cry or scream with joy. well im beyond tired and i hav to get up and go see my english teacher before class about my essay i wrote about valencia. im not changing my idea i simply need help getting what i want to say out. well to those who read this thanks for bearing with me. i would "spill" more but my fingers are going to fall off from all the typing. later and good night<3333 renee.

ohh and i totally forgot the most awsomest thing ever. some lady called me to tell me i won a free new video ipod nano from college fest. HOLLER.