obsessing

i really dislik that word but thats pretty much what ive been doing since the show on thursday. grr why must tony be so MMMM. haha anywho i need to chill before i scare someone. ahha hung with jes last night and we went with serg to wp. it was sillie at first as always but it got a little better. we couldnt even stay for long bc serg had to be home at ten. ah of course he was late. i think im a genius. bc i got [or at least i think so] alysha into possibly liking scenes. so im making her a copy and letting her hav at it. and she said she would go to their next show around here. holler. i think its bc she lik shat on the floor when she saw my picture with luke. ahah. anywho. good shit go to myspace and check out my profile song. it owns. and im not tellign what t is. clik on the link located to the right of this page. ahaha no seriously go look. jes showed me her pic that she took at fit for AP portfolio and there lik amazing. i didnt realize she was that good. not that i thought sahe was bad but i lik really lik her pictures. lik i really lik bdan fomr valencias styl of photography and hers was lik that but some were even better so i was lik woa when did you get this good. so grr to her im jealous. i think i need to get myself one of those printers that she has of hers. bc it owns. nothing much is going on things are getting crazy trying to get shit settled up for college and i still have to read half of the book. but i hav 2 weeks ill be fine. but i hav all this health insurnace shit to complete but i told my dad about it earlier today so im sure itll be starughten out befoer i go to work today. and then im gonna need a ride bc my dad claims he fixed the break light oin my car thats been there for lik 2 months but he hasnt. and now the car is past inspection and i cant drive it and grr to him he better get off his ass and fix it tongiht. im serious shit needs to go down. ahah. woa im lik rediculously nervous about this college ordeal. i didnt think iwas this not ready for it. lik im think i just want to go and get the whole beggining akward unsteady phase over and done with bc i start so late and now im just lingering around waiting for akward time when i just want it all to pass. and im gonna be so alone. no v boys no scenes everyone is going away on tours and not lik aroud boston. i knew this shit was going to happen. i need to get my shit figured out as fast as i can when i get to college bc i need to know when i can come home for certain shows. lik i think ill hav to skip all sep shows and come home only for the bayside show in october and then see valencia thanksgiving break. and i still havent talked to my dad about this new phone business. i dont really know if i can handel 30 a month so i might not get aim on the phone no matter how bad i really want it. or maybe ill get that instead of unlimited text. i hav to figure out which i want/ will use more. so im off to handle other internet duties. but untill my next stress session....peace out.

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